Case Story: Thy...How Hard is it to Confess and Make Amends?

I have been doing much reflecting since Thy bout with death. Well I thought it was a near death experience having a gun pulled right at thee by He, the hands of an enraged “black” young hood Man just days ago. In my mind Thy is still begging for Thy’s life, but at times Thy felt as though Thy should have been shot at and Thy would not have made a “sound”. Thy ended up being the victim out of all of this but was at first the prey. When all was said and done He who had held the gun became the target of much confrontation and contention as he had done this awful thing. But the action had warrant the crime. And It was Thy who had wronged first... and now Thy holds the gun and He must now surrender an apology from what any man who oppose such advances would pull a gun to do. I feel that this sin could bite and Thy must now ask God for his forgiveness and Face Him to whom Thy must surrender. Thy can only accept an apology and confess. But is Thy Man enough to do so.... And can Thy bear the cost that comes with it. So Thy seek to apologize half-Heartedly without confession. But God sees all and to him Thy must request amends through prayers and self regulation. Never will Thy enjoy the succulence of man or woman unless for procreation. And devout self to much prayer and reflection.